Taking Accountability For My Circumstances

It’s so easy to blame everyone else for the circumstances we are in. But the truth is we ourselves also need to take responsibility for where we are and the boundaries we may not be setting or upholding. I have an issue with trusting peoples intentions towards me and to be honest, the victim mindset is my first resort.

As I’m taking on my new roles of mother, and wife. I’m allowing myself to let go of old mindsets and knowing that I am responsible for me and what I allow. I believe that everyone is trying to be their best self and no one intentionally wants to be the bad guy in situations but our trauma and projections get in the way of things.

I do not always have this enlightened mindset though, most the time I struggle with trusting peoples intentions and trusting myself to determine if I should be offended, actions I need to take to protect myself and wondering if I’m tripping.

With my new free time after becoming a stay at home mom, and full time entrepreneur, one of the things I’m learning that I have to be more strict with what I say yes too. I‘ll usually be the first to say yes to any move or task that any one asks of me but now, I’m trying to be more selective of where and what I spend my time on.

Something I just realized is that, I self sabotage by pointing my attention towards anyone or anything else but myself and then claim, I don’t have enough time to do this and that. It’s probably why I’m so inconsistent with these blogs because I want to blame being busy and preparing for this baby and checking on family members, and all this other stuff is why I’m not getting stuff done, but its just me not having the discipline I need to have.

My goal and what I believe to be God’s calling on my life is to be a successful entrepreneur and influencer, making a full salary on creating, but I can’t do it with the way I’m functioning right now. I have to get out of this self sabotaging behavior. This is part of my process though, and God doesn’t bless who I pretend to be, he blesses and appointed the authentic me to fulfill his plans, and me finding how to get my self and my journey together and show you all it is possible for us all to do this, is what I plan to do.

Here is to, figuring this thing out! I’ll keep y’all updated.

Prayer

God, please help me to fulfill your plan by guiding me, giving me wisdom, courage, and what ever I may need to fulfill your plans for me. I struggle with discipline and accountability when it comes to being consistent. Please remove any distractions, or doubt that I may have before me and please make my path straight so that I may fulfill your plan. I love you ! Amen.